Thursday, April 29, 2010

Am I Ready to Walk Into Marriage?

It is so wonderful to know there will be 4 couples in queue to have their wedding from Oct this year until next year.

Pastor has been busy to give all of us marriage course and see each of us personally to guide and advise us. The first class was indeed a stressful one for me as my fiance was not available to attend together with me. Therefore, I need to make notes and explain everything about that day lecture to him. Phew~

This question keep popping in my mind recently. "Am I really ready for a marriage life ?"
Wondering it is only me will think so or most of the bride to be will have such feeling.
I guess there is no perfect person in the world and I don't really looking for a 100% perfect guy as well (only Jesus is perfect).

But am I ready to take all the consequences in a marriage?

After my 1 to 1 session with pastor, i guess i was bit discouraged and yet encouraged at the same time. Sound confused huh? Me too! haha...

What was I afraid of? The marriage life, the house chore, the husband, the children, MIL, losing of singlehood, financial issue, affair? I can't really find the answer for this.
but if you ask me, do I love this man? I am certainly yes.

(* stopped for 10 min as receiving a call from Uncle Bernard, a short talk to him suddenly inspire me of a verse)

Psalm 23:4 ~ Even though I walk through the valley of darkness, I fear no evil for You are with me.

Well, i guess Holy Spirit just speak to me that no matter what circumstance i am in, as long as i hang on to God, He will lead me through. And God's intension for marriage is certainly a good and blissful one.