Wednesday, July 29, 2009

In My Brokeness

I do not really know how to categorise my mood and emotion right at the moment. I thought I should be happy and relief that it is over. I thought I should come out from the stressed emotion of the past 7 weeks. I thought the hurting words are not in purpose. I thought I forgive. I wish I forget. I prayed that I want to let all these behind.

But the truth is - I wake up this morning, still find myself in brokenness, spiritually. My self confident, my heart, my value, all crushed into pieces.

May be my expectation is wrong. I thought the relationship with Jesus is sweeter everyday than before. It turns out I am down down down all the way in my heart.

So I thought, perhaps I'm not working hard enough to make the relationship sweet.. So I work harder. I work harder. I work harder. But the reward for all that was gradually increasing depression, confusion and disappointment.

Then I question, should I run away from this? Just leave everything behind and perhaps find a job oversea where no one knows me. Is't I am not in His favor and I should stop here instead of keep irritates Him and His people. Isn't God is love? Why I only see people in disguise. It makes me sick. Is it because my serving not in His favor? Or because I am so unbearable in His sight?

Again, I drown in brokenness.

I know God must have mad at me this time. I would not have been surprised to hear God express anger about my spiritual inadequacies. He has all the reasons to shame me, to blame me, to be disgusted by my spiritual failure and disappointed in me.

I am spiritually bankrupt. But, I still can't change the fact that He is the only true living God. He is my God. My beloved Father in Heaven. Surprisingly He speaks to me even when my spiritual resources have been dried out, stolen, depleted, He pronounces blessing.

Psalm 34:18 ~ The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

Psalm 51:17 ~ The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

He did not despised my spiritual brokenness, rather, He sees it as a kind of worship. God understands how difficult it is to let go. But God also recognizes the spiritual maturity that is being shaped in us during this process. God treasures every single changed in me. He hugs me tight to His heart even when I was collapsed in brokenness. He wipes away my tears with His loving hands.

Who am I to deserve this?

Ya, I do not need to care what people may say or think of me anymore. God knows it all. He sees what people don't. He treasures me in everyway. That worth all. I will sit here, waiting Him to restore every single part of me. Let Him bandages my wounds and heals me completely.

Psalm 126:5-6 ~ They who sow in tears shall reap in joy and singing. He who goes forth bearing seed and weeping [at needing his precious supply of grain for sowing] shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him.

Friday, July 10, 2009

A Nice Restaurant to Intro - Lily's Vegetariankitchen

A nice vege restaurant with variety of food. Recommended by Shi Hui. I really enjoyed the food so I was thinking that I should share this with all of my friends.


Something different from the ordinary vege restaurant.
This is the wan tan mee.

This is called "xiang chun mian" 香椿面。 Looks nice but the taste is so so only.
The two noodles we tried were not really satifying. I would recommend you to try the rice.

Kebabs~! This is really good. Highly recommended. Cost RM6 for 6 sticks.

So do the Satays, RM6 for 6 stick. I didn't expect it to be such delicious.

Fish and Chips. RM7 if I'm not mistaken.

Chicken Chop. The gravy taste good with an incredibly sweet smell.

Green Curry can really spice up your taste bud.

There is also other choices such as nasi lemak, laksa, pasembur, mee goreng, steak, pizza, burger, popiah, soup noodle etc etc.
Located at 98, Noble House, Lorong Madras.
Tel: 04-2263810

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

One Year Passed, Many More to Come...

Thanks God for leading us through the last whole year. It is a blessing that we can celebrate our very 1st anniversary.
Darling gave me a surprise by bringing a bouquet of roses.

^^ I was totally not aware of that. As usual, quickly posting with the flower for photo shooting.. hehe


At 1st we plan to have a formal dinner celebration at TGI Friday but we end up in Pizza Hut eating Vege Lover as both of us are fasting meat for whole week.

Anyway, the food is not that important at all. The important thing is we still can celebrate the day together.



Though our feet are different size, we'll continue to walk together on this journey.



Prayed together at the beach. Asking for God's futher guidance and protection.

A simple yet meaningful day~!






Saturday, July 4, 2009

BBQ Seafood Buffet - Berjaya Hotel Georgetown

Ta~da...

Time for feast again...

This time is BBQ Seafood buffet at Berjaya Hotel Georgetown.

Too bad I did not take photos before I start eating as the food is too tempting.

These photos are taken after I had finished eating.. where there is not much food left..

This is salad corner...










We are too late where all the oyster has been grabbed off...







Fresh tiger prawn for BBQ. The chilli spices used for BBQ taste delicious.












Mussels?














Sotong and sting-ray for BBQ..











Fruits.....















Cakes...






Other dishes are such as seafood soup, seafood tempura, curry noodle, prawn mee.

The best part is.. they provide free flow of Haagen-Daz ice cream. Wow~!


And all these only cost RM38 per person. Senior citizen can even taste all these with 50% discount.

So, do bring your parents to try this out.