Monday, June 30, 2008

My Healing Testimonial

This is my testimonial on how God healed me from a cut in my throat. It was on Thursday night that I being cut by a sharp prawn’s tail in my inner throat. . I felt a sudden pain in my throat which is hardly to be described.

I struggled with the pain for more than 24 hours. I was frustrated and thinking perhaps this time, I really need to consult a doctor else I might get infection from the cut.

On Friday night, I couldn't stand the pain anymore. As I sat down and prayed, I ask God for healing. To be honest, I was praying in doubt. I was kinda persuading God to heal me as I laid hand on my neck and said, "ok Lord Jesus, could you please heal me? How about when I remove my hand from my neck and the pain suddenly gone? Let's count 1.. 2.. 3.. ok?"

So silently, I counted 1.. 2.. 3.. in my heart. Then follow by a longer silent. I took a try to swallow my saliva and... ouch....the pain is still there.

I was bit down and disappointed. I thought God always heal? Then how come the miracle didn’t happen? So I sat there quietly, trying to listen to God’s voice. I heard, patient, patient. Suddenly I realize that I shall not question God’s ability. He can always heal but in His timing, not mine. So once again, I surrender myself and apologize for my rudeness. I prayed that God will uphold me and heal me in the way He wants it to be. I prayed that He will restore me while sleep.

The next morning, I woke at 5:30am for my morning prayer. As I gave thanks to my heavenly Father for a new day, I suddenly realize the pain was gone. Not even I can feel a mild discomfort in my throat.

The pain in TOTALLY GONE !

My mind was a little bit blank at that moment as I had never ever experienced such a healing from God’s. I was astonished. I was overjoyed. The joy is indescribable.
Spectacular!
Some people might laugh at me right now as you might think this is such a small matter. To me, it is a miracle that proves God is real. We always thought that miracle means something great, huge and only happen during very serious or dangerous situation. This is a wrong concept. The miracle of God’s power is happening everyday, everywhere. It can be on you and me as long as we have faith in Him.

Sometime, the insignificant things happened around us may not seem great yet it is a plan from God. If we are more focus in Him and seeks Him always, we will realize that God is trying to brighten our days with all these tiny yet wonderful blessing. For sure, this glory belongs to Him alone.

My prayer of thanks:

Father in heaven, I am really thankful for such a great experience from you. As I walk on my journey, I see You there right beside me. You hold my hand and lead me all along the way. Sometime, it might be difficult for me to understand Your plan, then I slumber, I doubt and walk away from you. Yet, You never let me go. Thank you for your healing as this is a nutrient for my spiritual life to continue grows and blossom.
Amen.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Conversation Between My Internal Organs

Did you ever hear your internal organs talking to each other? Well, if you don't, let’s listen to what I hear inside my body.

One day, after my 3 days fasting, while I was asleep, my internal organs started to argue.

Intestine: phew~~this few days i really has alot of free time, only need to digest some liquid. No solid food at all.

Liver: Yeah.. less toxic for me too.

Heart & Lungs: Argg.... this is unfair. How come we still have to work 24 hours non-stop? How come intestine can have a 3 easy going days?

Lungs: Can I request Ariel to stop breathing for 3 days so that I could take a long holiday as well?

Intestine: Hey, not just me. Stomach does less work too.

Stomach: Argg…who say I’m having easy time? In fact, I’m struggling. It was really a tough period for me as without food, the acidic gastric juice is hurting my inner stomach wall. I was working even harder to monitor the juice secretion.

Heart: That shows you don’t have self control. Perhaps I should take a holiday and stop beating for 3 days as well. If our master do not agree with this, then I want to resign!

Lungs: Yeah.. Resign.. Resign….

Suddenly, the Holy Spirit voiced out.

Holy Spirit: You all foolish organs. Shut up and repent. What do you think you are if without your master body. God created all of you to be part of this body and to serve your master. How dare you make such a foolish requirement? Now, I shall punish you for your imprudent act.

At this time, all the organs trembled in fear and start to beg for forgiveness.

Holy Spirit: Remember, I spare your life is because this body still needs your function as long as this body is on earth. One day, when Jesus is back, god will grant your master a whole new body and all of you are nothing at all. But if you are still not satisfy at this moment, the Almighty God can set you off anytime right now and restore this body with new organs. So you better work hard!

After that, everyone is in silent. My body suddenly felt exhausted and I was gasping for breathe. My heart was pounding incredibly fast.

Brain: Hey, what’s wrong?

Lungs: 1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2….I must work hard else I’ll be set off. So I must breathe harder to get more oxygen for gas transfer. 1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2……

Heart: Ya ya.. so am I. I must work harder. Pumping blood in my highest speed.

Brain: Oh no!! You are going to make this body collapse!.. HELP~~~!!!!!

*p.s: If you feel "sweating" to read this article. I understand. As I also feel "sweating" that how could I come out with such an article. hahaha... crazy liao....

大头的我..

我的头很大。。很多人这么说,我也这么认为。。

大学4年,是我在电单车上飞驰最多的时期。朋友常常因为我穿不下他们带给我的头盔而笑得前俯后仰。

不然,就是喜欢捉弄我 "大头,大头,下雨不愁"

当然,另一个原因是我很善忘。 所以,又变成了人们口中的大头虾。有时在想,我的头那么大,是不是应该可以积存更多的记忆呢?那,为什么我却善忘?

唯一的解释是,这个记忆仓太大了,要找回一些纪录,并不容易。跑来跑去,是很累的,可怜我的脑细胞, 要比别人发出更强烈的电波,才能到达我大脑面积宽阔的的每一个角落。

你也觉得它们很可怜,对不对? 所以呢,如果我又忘记了一些事,请别怪我, 而是要体谅我的脑细胞哦。。

虽然,妈妈常说,大头的人是很有福气的。可是我找偏任何书,并没有任何科学证明可以支持这个说法。

有时会想,上帝啊。。您是不是在创造我的时候,毫不吝啬的下手太重了,把我的头塞得太满了?

无论是什么原因,我还是很庆幸,还是要感谢上帝。因为,要找一个象我这样,头大得那么可爱又漂亮的, 谈何容易。。。

我可以看见你们正在点头)谢啦。。。哈哈

Monday, June 23, 2008

Coffee, Tea or God ? ?


Coffee, a widely-consumed stimulant beverage that many people could not live without. I’d seen people who cannot start their day without coffee. They feel down, reckless until they finally take a sip of this strong aroma, powerful drink. For some people, the urge of drinking coffee is so strong that without coffee, they can’t concentrate or focus at all. Can I consider this as “addicted” to coffee?

Tea, that I meant here is not the beverage itself but is about the “Yum Cha” culture in Malaysia. “Yum Cha” means drinking tea or should be interpreted as drinking tea during supper time has become a trendy culture in the society. I still remember when I first stepped into University and telling my friends that I’d never “Yum Cha” during my high school period, they laughed at me. Soon, I’m some sort addicted to such a culture too. Try to make it every night without failed. Luckily, it did not last long.

I won’t describe any further about coffee or tea as they are not my main concern here. What I wish to say is about my God and Jesus Christ, above all the addiction stated above. Some people can spend hours to brew a cup of nice coffee yet no time to pray. Some people can steal a few hours every night to go “Yum Cha” yet no time to spend just 15 or 30 min to chat with God. Some people tells me that they love God, but when their obsession on coffee start to haunt them, all that is in their mind is “coffee~~ coffee~~I need coffee”.

Well, don’t get me wrong. I don’t mean that drinking coffee or go to “Yum Cha” is wrong. I just mean that sometime this habit may distract our focus on God if the habit has became much more important than seeking God. Coffee and tea here are just an example. The distraction could be in other form such as music, movie, drama, games, sports, clubbing etc. Of course we can enjoy all these as it is part of God’s creation too but with terms and conditions which is God First.

I wish one day, I could be addicted. I want to be “Jesus Addict”. Perhaps I’m already is as I know I could not live without Jesus. And I would wake up every morning yelling

Jesus~~Jesus~~ I need Jesus”. It is He alone that can give me strength, courage and above all, Life.

He is my shelter, my shield, my portion, my deliverer, my strong tower, my very present help in time of need.

*p.s: Lastly, if you ask me coffee, tea or God ? No doubt, 101% answer is GOD.
Because I don’t drink coffee or tea as I only drink Milo. phew~~luckily.. :p


Sunday, June 22, 2008

My Journey


*p.s : Please click on the image in order to read the message...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

唱 k 咯~~!




今天,差点失声了。。和侄女去唱k 。两个人,唱了两个半小时,我觉得很累,这小妞却还嚷着不够过瘾。真被她打败。

无论如何, 第一次在怡保唱 k, 当然要拍照留念喔。


一,二,三。。。 =.=


试了几次,我那可爱的侄女,应该是还沉醉在音乐中,眼睛总是睁不开。没办法咯。。

My Workplace


Many people always concern about where am I working as my company does not have a branch office in Ipoh.
So now, let me show you my work station, where I spend most of my time except when I'm attending case or meeting surgeon.
Though it is not a perfect work place but I still appreciate it alot. And sometime I guess, I should be selected as best employee as I'm so hardworking until most of the time, I sleep beside my workplace (my bed is right opposite the table). Haha~~!

My pH Dropped, Due to Transplanting


It was a bad weather, sometime raining heavily, sometime was too warm.
Perhaps during such a difficult time, it is really not suitable to transplant me - Hydrangea.
Last night, it rained heavily. I was swaying in the rain. Even though tonne of rain water flowing into me, I am still dehydrated.

God's heart must be pain to see me in such condition, but He insisted to transplant me. As He knew what is best for me. I need a new environment and a new pot. He dug me out from the old soggy soil. I am so stubborn sometime that I refused to be moved. I want to stay in my comfort area because I worry too much. What if the new pot not suitable for me? What if I cannot adapt to the new environment? What if when I being transplant, my pH dropped and I turned to blue.

When I insisted to stay on the ground, I became so strengthless. Then my tears keep flowing. Suddenly, I look up and I see God's face. He stand there silently under the rain. I see tears flowing down His cheeks too. He kept telling me it is all right when He started to dig up as much rootball as possible. It was a difficult task in such a weather. But He didn't gave up on me. Then I realized, it would be easier if I clinged on His hand to allow Him to carry me out from the soggy soil instead I slumber around and let Him to do all the rest.

When I was finally out from the old soil.. My pH dropped tremendously and I turned blue~~ ( refers to previous post to know why pH is important to Hydrangea). God held me tight in His arm and rush to the new pot and let me settle down. I waited silently. Then I was too tired and fell asleep but He remains there to comfort and heal me. He checking my pH from time to time to make sure when the sun rises again in the morning, I'll be in the pink of health.

Thanks God, I woke up fresh and shine today. I might not be in perfect pH of 6.2 yet but I can see He still stand beside me holding me. Using His huge body to cover me to avoid the strong sunlight then He says to me, "My dear, bare in mind that I will only give You the best, hold on and You will see the glory soon".

Thursday, June 19, 2008

A Break Through In Life

Hours ago, I'd been waiting, counting down the time to write this testimony. I just can't believe it that I really did it. Fasting for 3 days equivalent to 72 hours without solid food, but only plain water, 2 cups of milo, a cup of orange juice and a cup of soya bean each day. (I can hear some ppl saying I'm crazy now). Haha.


Well, what I want to emphasize here is not how wonderful that I made this. I'm not fasting for keeping fit nor for a proof that I got self control. But I fast for seeking God. I am very sure that I will not make this through if it is without God's protection, guidance and blessing.


As a girl who always suffer from gastric pain, I always convince myself (consciously or unconsciously) that I cannot fast. I don't have the faith at all. But this time, God really touched my heart in order to make this decision. Within this 3 days, I don't suffer from gastric pain, I still look energetic and fresh, I still work as usual, I still go to gym and work out for 1.5 hours.


Perhaps I still haven't got the answer that I'm looking for during this fast and pray period. But I know this is a break through for me as I'd come closer and closer to my Abba Father. And through Him alone that this can be done. Thank you my Lord for this blessing. All this glory belongs to You and You alone.


Hallelujah!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past Things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes All of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrify

Lord I offer You my life

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

A Mate from God

We know that it is the Lord's will for people to have mate if they desire one. In the beginning when God created Adam, God Himself made this statement.

Genesis 2:18 – It is not good for man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.

The Lord wants to bring a mate to those who will ask Him and have the patience to wait for His choice. There are some single people who are constantly looking for a mate and they are miserable because God has not sent them one yet. They have prayed and prayed yet they still have no mate.

Some start pondering and settle for Satan’s provision instead of asking God for the patience to wait for the one whom He would send. If they would look to Jesus & seek to please him, rather than being concerned about a mate, soon they will find the right one crossing their path.

Looking for a man or woman to just keep them from being lonely or just to fill their needs should not be the only reason for desiring a mate. It is important to be concerned about what kind of husband/wife they would be for a mate even before the relationship starts. They should ask Lord to fill them with His Love and Peace.

It might take some time before we really meet the correct mate as God may use our “singleness” to mold us into a better person before directing us to our other half. First the Lord would begin to use us to bless others; then we will find we are content in Him. Eventually, in God’s plan and timing, He will bless us with a wonderful mate so that both lives can be a witness for him. We should never enter into marriage or perhaps I should say enter into a relationship without much prayer.

If we allow the emotional & soulish realm to dominate our lives we become more susceptible to the enemy leading us astray through someone. So many have failed the Lord because they choose a man/woman over the Lord.
1. Solomon’s heathen wife led him into idolatry.
2. Samson lost his eyes because of a woman.
3. David committed murder and adultery because of passion for Bathsheba.

The true definition of love is “God is Love”. If God is not in a relationship, it is not true love. What the world calls love is really lust since it is built on what the other person does for me instead of what I can do for him/her. If the other person fails to keep up his end of the bargain, a divorce occurs because the offended mate is no longer pleased. This is the attitude of the world’s love.

God’s love is loves without receiving back (though this seems difficult to understand; in fact it is tough as we are just human)
God’s love if forgiving and patient.
God’s love is gentle and kind.
God’s love waits.
God’s love sacrifices.

Man’s emotions are not a reliable gauge upon which to establish a relationship. It is important to seek for character than emotion. Emotion fluctuate; character doesn’t. Emotion are in the soulish realm and unless the carnal mind has been renew, Satan can give us emotions or feeling of loves for someone of his choosing. “Falling” in love is Satan’s way. A Christian should not blindly “fall” into a trap. Love is bigger than simply falling for someone.

Certainly God gives us a wonderful emotional feeling for the one we are to marry. However, this “feeling” without God’s direction can be disastrous as Satan can tamper with our emotions and feelings too. Therefore, relationship or marriage should be based on a decision directed by the Holy Spirit.

Above all, thank God and seek God.

Monday, June 16, 2008

My 1st Instrument Wrapping


I always feel the CSSD staff in the operation theatre does incredible job. They need to manage alot of instrument, from washing, drying, cleaning to wrapping with correct way, arranging different set of instrument for different type of surgery.


Finally, they give me a chance to learn from them on how to wrap the instrument set. So excited to share it out. Here it is, the very 1st instrument set that i wrapped by myself. It is 2 layer. Now, it is ready to push into autoclave machine to sterile it.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Thank God, I'm in pH 6.2


Some people might be wondering, what does Ariel means by "I'm in pH 6.2" ? does she turned acidic?

Now, let me tell you the fascinating facts about Me as Hydrangea.
Hydrangeas are fascinating in that, unlike most other plants, the color of Hydrangea can change dramatically. The color can be changed by controlling the pH of the soil. Hydrangea can appear to be blue to pink or even purple.

It is much easier to change a hydrangea from pink to blue than it is from blue to pink. Changing a hydrangea from pink to blue entails adding aluminum to the soil. Changing from blue to pink means subtracting aluminum from the soil or taking it out of reach of the hydrangea. pH 6.2 is perfect for Hydrangea to keep it pinkish color. If the pH drop until 5.2-5.5, it will become blue in color.

Therefore, when I say I'm in pH 6.2 means I'm in the pink of health, not in "blue~~" mood. Good thing right? haha...

Well, wondering am I confusing anybody? What is hydrangea to do with me? Actually, Hydrangea is the nick of mine which i use since the very first day learn to online. So Hydrangea means me. I choose this nick is because I'm amazed with hydrangea's wonderful nature and character.

Conclusion, I am in pH 6.2 and I'm sure God will be my perfect gardener who will always maintain my pH so that I'll be happy and healthy and pinky always.

Thanks my heavenly Papa, muacks!

我坚信...

心,是一个容器,不停的累积,所有的点滴。。

但,如果有一天,当思念满溢,沾透天与地。。

我,还是否依然,耐心等待着,顺服的聆听。。

风,为我吹起了,满地的落叶,也编编起舞。。

雨,悄悄的落了,载我的祝福,撒在你身边。。

天,渐渐的黑了,我闭上双眼,在内心摸索。。

主,我听见你了,不需要言语,只需坚信着。。

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Meaningful lyric to share

你身上专属的陌生味道 是我确认你存在的目标
不用来回张望了直到 今世我们相隔在一个街角
这么久了,还是可以看到 感觉得到你对我的重要
不会被天黑天亮打扰 你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到,我比谁都更明白你的重要
这么久了我就决定了,决定了你的手我握了不会放掉
我们绕了这么一圈才遇到,我答应自己不再庸人自扰
因为我要的我自己知道,只要你的肩膀依然让我靠