1.Each blogger must post this rules

2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves

3. Blogger who are tagged need to write ten things about their own blog and post these rules .You need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names .

4. Don`t forget to leave them comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog .

Err.. seems like I'm getting outdated. Don't even realised that I'd been tagged and what tagging is all about. And this was long ago but I only realise now.

Ten Random Facts/Habits About Me

1. I can't live without God. He is my everything. Well, this is not about holiness but is a fact to me.

2. I love milo and milkshake. Why I love milo? because I don't like neither coffee, tea nor oats drinks. Why I love milkshake? I also don't know why, I just keep thinking of it day and night.

3. I cry easily. Sometime not because I'm sad but because I'm touched.

4. I always make ppl =.=". Perhaps I tell too much cold jokes. Not everyone can understand my joke or my thinking. In order to cover up themselves that they actually don't understand me, they will just stand there and sweating all over.

5. I like to bite. But I dont simply bite anything. I only bite human who has soft and chewy flesh. So if I bite you, is your pleasure which shows that you have good skin complexion.

6. I online almost everyday except when I don't have pc around me, or there is no internet connection.

7. I love to look at the mirror every morning when I wake up. It is such a great thing to see a beautiful girl from the mirror's reflection which will brighten up my day.

8. I record my expanses everyday. Money is not everything. But many people says "money=evil". So I must manage my money well so that they will not go out and hurt people. If you think you have too much "evil" with you and don't know how to control them. Don't worry, just leave them with me. I will help you to train them.

9. My actual age is 21 even though most people says I look like 18. Wuahaha...

10. I like to roll around. On bed of course.

10 things About My Blog

a. A corner for me to share my thinking.

b. Sometime in English, sometime in Mandarin.

c. Always pink.

d. Not much follower because I'm not a good writter.

e. Sometime I write alot, sometime I'll disappear for a long period.

f. No music.

g. You'll know me better if you read carefully.

h. Some posts are not meant to be understand.

i. Write more when I'm down than when I'm happy.

j. ............................................................. ---> means that, boring one.

Well, attention!! The following people, you'd been tagged.

-Hannah http://hannahk-chan.blogspot.com/
-Ikan Masin (chet,.. it's u la..) http://zainv.blogspot.com/
-sEnGz http://softshellcrabtemaki.blogspot.com/
- superchuan http://superchuan.blog.friendster.com/
-aaron http://aaronchicky.blogspot.com/
-hazel http://hazelhz.multiply.com/
-mindy http://mindyoon.blogspot.com/

er... just found that I don't have much blog to follow.. where got time so read so many people punya blog la???

过大礼。。

别误会， 这不是关于我的结婚过大礼，而是我家三姐的。
这篇文章其实早在两个星期前就该写， 但忙得差点给忘了。
大姐，二姐结婚时，我还很小，什么也不懂，也没什么印象了。
妈妈说，在以前的时候，当父母看见礼饼送到时，就会哭了，
因为礼饼一收，女儿就非嫁不可了。。
可是依我家的情况看来，好像并没有人哭哦。。反而是兴高采烈的，热闹极了。
难道，大家都想把三姐赶快嫁出去？哈哈。。开玩笑的啦。。我可是伤心极了。。
（因为，过年过节，少了一个帮手，我可要累坏了）

这就是我未来三姐夫送来的嫁女饼。是不是很可爱呢？味道也很好噢。。。


看，新娘子是不是很漂亮？发型设计--〉我，化装师--〉二姐

Due to the request from my beloved cousin sis, so I'll try my best to translate this post into english directly. Will try to make it as accurate as I can.. but I am not a good translator oh.

Please don't mis-understand. This is about my 3rd sis's pre-marriage sending gift ceremony, not mine (so called "go dai lai" in cantonese). I should have write this post 2 weeks ago, but delayed due to busy schedule.

When my eldest and 2nd sisters got married, I was too young to understand the ceremony. SO, can't really recall anything special.

Mum told me, in the ancient time, parents will sure cry once they receive gifts from groom's side. Because, this ceremony symbolizes that the daughter is really going to get marry already.
But, from the scenery I observed in my family, nobody crying. In fact, everyone was so happy and excited. Perhaps everybody want 3rd sis to get marry as soon as possible? haha... just kidding.

Actually I am very sad oh.. (because this means that less 1 ppl to help to do housework during festival.. I will be exhausted oh)

Hope, Faith & Love

God could not put Hope in your heart unless you first put your trust in Him and believe He will make your path straight.

God could not put Faith in your heart unless you first surrender everything to Him and stand firm no matter in what circumstances

God could not put Faith in your heart unless you first accept Jesus as your savior, that He first loves us and died for us.

God don’t just put hope, faith and love in you, but He gives you the chance to exercise these. It is through the experiences that you will receive these.

Crossroad

I had been working very hard this year. By the blessing from God, I'm doing well; instead boss also praising "well done". Therefore I always thought I'm very secure in my current job, happily freely enjoying myself in my comfort zone.

Yet, life is always unpredictable. Now I have to change company. Not because I resign, not because I'm fired but because of company new system. I was miserable, confused, troubled, uncertain and keep asking myself, "why why why? Am I not good enough?" I'm trapped at the crossroad.

Boss persuades me to stay but relocate me to KL. That is not the life I want, I will not enjoy myself staying there. If I do, I'd be in KL long long ago. Therefore I have no choice but to accept the new job in our distributor company which will secure me to be based in Northern Region.

I was so down and started to drown in my own sorrow again. I cried to God asking Him why this happening to me. Though the new job role seems interesting, I am just not ready for a change at this moment. I'm worry will I be good in the new company? Will the boss and colleagues treat me well?

Then suddenly God speaks to me. “Have I not looking after you all the time? Have I not bless you always in your previous job and current job? Wherever you go, I'm with you. Everyone is favor in you because you are my favored child. Just go ahead and you’ll see this time, and again my blessing still with you.”

Then I realized, I need to move in order for God to work on me. He has the best thing in store for me but if I don’t move forward according to His plan, I can’t reach the spot where the blessing is awaiting.

Happy Birthday To Me~~

It's Ariel's birthday~~

Everyone keeps asking me " Any surprise? "

Well, sometime surprise can be exciting but it can cause heart attack also oh.

So, anyway, Thank God I don't have heart attack during my birthday.

Instead, I had a warm sweet birthday. I have a lovely birthday cake and a wonderful time plus yummy dinner at Food Loft. (Take a peep on some of the delicious dishes below)

This is my lovely bday cake...

cheezy macaroni..not bad oh..

Jumbo Ais Kacang...

Chicken chop.. looks quite good but taste so so nia la...

French fries..my all time favourite...
This bento set ah.. er.. i only tasted the chicken, nice... the other side dishes.. try yourselves ya..

Of course I will not forget all the wishes from my lovely friends. So I must thanks all of you sincerely : my darling Joshua, my family Papa, Mama, Mummy, Aunt Mary, Angeline, Candy, Joo Lin, Hwei Yee, Szee, Shan, Alfred, my friends Sing Chet, May Nee, Shi Hui, KC, Amanda, Byron, Yap, Ser Ser, Janet, Grace, Lay Ping, Siow Teng, Pei Jean, Alice, Mun Hoo, Wei Loon, King, Garry, Regine, Winnie, Allen, Ee hong, Bernard, Marlous, Fei Sean, Danny, Jeffrey, Boon Hwa, Kenny, Simon, Bek Khee etc etc... (If I left out your name, pls forgive me)

Hydrangea Needs Pesticide

My Gardener is busy because Hydrangea is sick. The evil one sent in a lot of bugs and worms trying to attack this tiny plant. These bugs have been hiding inside Hydrangea for very very long period I guess. But this time, Gardener wants to cast out every single little bugs.

It's a tough process as these are stubborn bugs. They hooked on the leaf, the flowers, the stems, the roots; basically is everywhere.

Gardener sprinkle strong pesticide and some powerful remedy. I am sure Hydrangea will get well soon as she has the most powerful and wonderful gardener. Fear not Hydrangea, as Gardener is watching over you. Be strong and full of courageous and victory is near.

Psalm 23:4 - Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

I am well

I used to write alot.. but wondering why recently seems like couldn't write much.

Because of my sudden "blog post disappear" many friends sent their regard.

Just to share that Ariel is still well. ^^ Just recently too tight up with alot of things.

I will be back soon.

小白和小黄

小白和小黄来自不同的地方...第一次见面，彼此都看不顺眼...

小白and小黄came from different places...They did not have favor in each other at all when they first met....

但，命运把他们凑在一起....

But, fate brings them together...

小黄送了一束可爱的爱情樱桃给小白， 来见证他们的爱情.

小黄bought a bouquet of love cherries for 小白, as a rememberance of their love..

小白非常感动。每天都细心的呵护着这些樱桃们。。

小白was very touched.. She took very good care of them everyday...

因为，它们代表着小黄和小白的爱情

Because these cherries represented their love for each other..

但是，有一天，这束樱桃突然不见了。。

One day, the cherries disappear suddenly without a sign..

小白伤心极了。。终日悠悠寡欢

小白was so sad... and depressed...

为了小白，小黄决定带着小白，一同去寻找爱情樱桃..

小黄decided to search for it together with 小白..

他们走遍千山万水。。甚至去询问那个“无所不知，无所不闻”的龙猫先生..

They went around the world.... They even consulted the very wise man - Mr 龙猫 who knows everything...

还是没有答案.

Yet, they couldn't find the answer.

失落的小白躁急得哭倒在小黄的怀里..

说：“怎么办，爱情樱桃不见了。。是不是代表我们的爱情也将结束呢？”

小白cried : " What shall we do, love cherries are gone, does it means our love will end too?"

小黄紧紧地拥着小白，深情的回答：

“小傻瓜，爱情樱桃只是一个象征，有或没有，

并不重要，也不会影响我们的爱。　

只要我们仰望上帝，他必祝福我们直到永远”

But 小黄 still hug 小白 firmly in his arms and assured her :

"my dear, love cherries is just a symbol, its' existance is not that important at all. It will not affects our love too. As long as we focus on God, He will surely bless us forever"

小白终于破涕为笑...因为她发现

原来她生命中最敬仰的上帝在她心里面

最深爱的小黄在她身边..

这就足够了...

Finally, 小白 smile, because she realized that the Almight God is in her heart, and her beloved 小黄 is by her side...

That has already worth everything...

My Shelter

I complained, because she don't understand how sorrow it is.
I have to settle my emotion, go to work and smile at people.
While she can just spend whole day sitting at home, thinking how to accuse me back or drown in her own assumption.

I'm tired... totally exhausted. As if I'd just went through a battle 7 days 7 nights without rest.

But then I realised. How wrong I am. How foolish I am to think that way.

I am still the lucky girl. Even though I am sad, I still have Jesus in my heart. God is my great shelter and comforter.

But she has no one. She is helpless.

O Lord, forgive me for my negative assumption. I give thanks to You for loving me. And I pray that You will comfort her as well. Give her peace and joy. Open her spiritual eyes so that she will come to know that You're the Almighty God.

Amen!

Look Up & See Wide

Matthew 6:22 – The eye is the lamp of the body; so if your eye is clear, your whole body will be full of light.

It is so important about having a positive vision. But I always failed to do so. I never confident enough to rise higher than the image I have of myself. I always prepare the negative side so that I will be ready to accept any disappointment. This is very bad actually. I will never accomplish things that I don’t first see myself accomplishing.

Many times, I get too focus on my problem and neglected the mission from God. I must conceive it on the inside through my eyes of faith before it will come to pass on the outside. I need to create a healthy look picture and get it rooted in my mind.

Don’t look to the back that pulls me down. Don’t look the left or right that distracted me. Don’t look inside that make me lost. But always look up and being delivered by Father from the above.

So, stop worrying, start expecting good things that God is going to put in your life.

In Him that I Find Peace

It was an exhausted weekend. Not physically, but mentally.

I had a battle to fight, it was discouraging, hurting indeed.

I fell down, I weeped.

I felt defeated and sorrow.

But then, when I turn around, I see many angels beside me, comforting me, supporting me.

I looked up, and I see Him, my dearly heavenly Father.

What will I be if without Him?

I dare not imagine that and I don't have to.

Because, It's only in Him that I find peace. In Him alone.

Amen!

Exhausted Week..

Within a week time... I'd been in 4 different places...

Last Wed in kl, Fri in kk, sabah, Mon back in kl, Wed in Ipoh, and now currently in Penang.

It might sounds interesting but the fact is.. it's really exhausted...

Sometime, when i wake up, i might need 10 seconds to figure out my own location..

haha...

but luckily, no matter where I go, where I wake up, I still realise God in with me in my heart.

^^

他就在我心里面

因为出差，必须乘飞机到 KK 去。。

在１００００公尺的高空中，望向窗外的白云，感觉有点不踏实。。

常在想，飞在天上是否就比较靠近天国？

是否和阿爸天父更贴近了？思索了一会儿。。

发现。。。原来无论我去到哪儿。。

哪怕是最底的深渊， 或是最遥远的外太空。。

上帝还是与我同在。。

因为，他就在我心里面。。

My Mid-Year Spiritual Appraisal

It’s July. Usually at this time, most bosses will hold a mid year appraisal with their employee to review their performance. This is important so that the employee will know how far they have achieved and what else they can improve in order to meet their yearly goals.

Often, we set goals or objectives for our carrier and life. How about our spiritual growth? Have you done your mid year appraisal with God?
Or I should ask, had you ever set your spiritual goal for 2008 at the beginning of the year?

I’m glad I did. So now I’m going to come out with a summary of my appraisal with God.


1st Objectives
Learn to fast & pray

Review Comments
- Manage to be firm on my stand, fast and pray for things in life.
- Get rid of obsession on food.

2nd Objectives
More prayer & spend time with God

Review Comments
- Manage to spend quality time with God and communicate with Him in better way.
- Be discipline on setting my prayer time.

3rd Objectives
Pray for Healing - spirit, soul & body

- Get healed from my gastric problem during the fast and pray period.
- Healed from throat pain and strained ankle.


I’m pretty happy with what I’d achieved but I also know that there is always room for improvement. I should not be pleased by little achievement and let my spiritual life get stagnant after this. All these attainments should be the momentum to drive me for higher level growth.

I want to get closer to Him. I want to pray more. I want to be healed from all sickness. Above all, I’m sure God will lead me through, guide me along the way and waiting for me at the end of the path. By that time, I can be rejoiced and glorify His Mighty Name.

Superhero from God

One of the famous superhero from fictional Marvel comics is X-Men (mutants). They are so special because they acquire supernatural power either from birth such as Cyclops, Storm or through incident such as Wolverine. In the stories, many ordinary humans harbor an intense fear of mutants just because they are different from normal human.

The group were formed by the benevolent Professor Charles Xavier, a wealthy mutant who founded an academy to train young mutants to protect themselves and the world from Magneto, the Brotherhood of Mutants and other mutant threats.

So what is this got to do with superhero from God?

It is natural that when somebody is different from the other, people tends to despise them. We shouldn’t blame the natural human nature. I myself am an ordinary girl who always acts naturally.

Don’t feel bad if you forgot to say a word of prayer before you eat. It is natural.
Don’t feel bad if you hate someone. It is natural.
Don’t feel bad if you didn’t read bible. It is natural.
Don’t feel bad if you’re playful. It is natural
Don’t feel bad if you tend to worry and being anxious. It is natural.
Don’t feel bad if you dare not talk about Jesus in front of your friends. It is natural.
All these are natural human being’s character. It’s normal that Christian behaves so.

But to be supernatural in God’s eyes is difficult. That needs a lot of effort and training. We might have the supernatural character hidden in us but we do not know how to release it. We need God’s guidance to teach and train us to unveil our supernatural character. These supernatural power is not that we can produce powerful "optic blasts" from his eyes like Cyclops or born with telepathic and telekinetic power like Jean Grey.

Let me tell you what supernatural Christian is and how to be a superhero in God's way.

If you can pray in every circumstance, it is supernatural.
If you can forgive someone for hurting you, it is supernatural.
If you can put aside your worry and submit to God, it is supernatural.
If you can read God’s words everyday, it is supernatural.
If you can pray more than play, it is supernatural.
If you can share about Christ with everyone, it is supernatural.

Of course, there are many more supernatural behaviors that I couldn’t list out.

But I believe that God put all these ability in us. It is our choice to make whether we allow Him to unleash our power or continue to be the “natural ordinary human” that accepted easily by most people.

But I wish that one day, when I’m ready; I can proudly walk out and say

“Hey there, watch out! I’m the Super-Heroine from God”

都是你

曾经, 觉得光良的"都是你" 的歌词很有意思. 但不完全体会.

现在, 有点明白了..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
谁改变了我的世界
没有方向没有日夜
我看着天 这一刻在想你
是否会 对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天 在心中默默念
下一秒 你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

这些都是爱的累积
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但是, 这歌词前部分, 应该更改一下.. 不应该"没有方向没有日夜"的
应该是"有了方向,有了日夜"..有上帝的人怎会没方向呢?

当然, 想念的是谁呢? 哈哈...

shhh~~~!

秘密~!

还好。梦

都是天气惹的祸，整夜翻来附去，根本没睡好。

天快亮时，终于入眠啦。。却发恶梦了。。

可能我在车上的时间太长了，恶梦也发生在车上的。。

在一个充满斜坡的停车场，一直往后退，仿佛毫无止境的。。

直到被抛出车外，还是一直往下跌。。

终于，爬上来了。。却变成在高速公路飞驰。。

天啊，我又不使车神，不用那么快吧，而且，煞车器失灵了。。

梦通常都不公平的，发美梦时，总是轻易醒过来。

发恶梦时，却怎样也无法醒来,只能拼命挣扎。。

就在要撞上高速公路中央的大树时 （看，高速公路中央竟然有大树）

就在这时，我听见铃声响起，随手抓起手机

phew~~ 听见了一个熟悉的声音。。

梦，就被吵醒了. ermm..... 不对，应该说被救醒了。。

谢谢咯。。。

Trust God in Every Circumstance

Proverbs 3:5-6 – Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your way acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight.

Very often, we claim that “we trust God”. But when life is difficult, we start to blame God instead of seeking and trusting God. We always question, “Why God, why is it me?” or “God, please take my sorrow away”. Yet we had never questioned ourselves why Jesus die for my sin which do not belongs to Him?

How many times that when we are at the crossroad and doubt our way. We see the signboard given by God asking us to follow the path that He has chosen for us. To us, the path seems terrible. It is full with thorns, it is crooked. Then we stumble, we doubt, we question God, we even ask God to change the plan or we try to convince ourselves that maybe the signboard is mistaken.

Our sight is shallow. We could not see beyond God’s plan. Just like we couldn’t see that every ugly knots behind the cross-stitch is to ensure the threads are hold tight to portrait a pretty picture on the other side.

All we have to do at that point of confusion is “God will not give us a burden that we cannot bear”. So, when we are about to take a step into that “awful-looked” path, ask God for map as direction, wisdom as your sword, armor as your protection & angel as helper. Then by faith, we walk through strong and firm instead of asking for exception. If we can make it through, surely the reward at the end of the path is abundance.

Amen!

*p.s- An old post of mine in my friendster blog. As i read back, found it is still touched my heart and made me think for a while. So, just wish to share here.

忙碌好? 好忙碌?

人，真奇怪。。忙碌时，总是埋怨。

但，现在。。我只想变得很忙碌。。

做什么都可以，只要没剥夺我和上帝相聚的时间。。

越忙越好。。最好是让我忙到累了，一倒下床就睡着。。

苦涩的汗水..

汗水是咸的。。可你有尝过苦涩的汗水吗？

今天健身时，脸上的汗水特别多。 我努力的用手擦拭，却还是流个不停。

才发现，我的眼睛也会流汗。。稀奇吧？

原来，苦涩的，是眼睛的汗水。。

Am I ok? "Doubting.."

I thought I am fine.

I went to gym, wanted to put aside my struggle and get myself work out.

Yet, 3 people ask me the same question: "Ariel, are you ok?"

With a sweet smile on my face, I answered: " Yeah of cos... what makes you think I'm not ok?"

Same answer again " Because you looked troubled in mind, and pale."

Gosh, it that so obvious? Since when my smiling face replaced with a troubled look without my notice? I don't like this feeling.

I felt defeated. I don't want to be this way. This is not Ariel.

I was wondering, is it I am not good enough that God purposely send someone to judge and question about my faith? God, am I that bad? I knew I wasn't an obedient child all the time. But surely I love you, Lord. The feeling of being judged doesn't taste good.

So if you see me, please don't ask me : "How are you?" I will still politely tell you "I'm fine". But I don't wish to lie because I myself also not sure am I fine at this moment. If you are my best friends, a hug from you is much much appreciated. Or perhaps, a comfort pat on my shoulder will be very warm indeed.

Anyway, Ariel will be fine. I'll try my best to be the cheerful girl again. So do not worry about me. ^_^

When I am really ok, you will see me smiling, hopping around as usual and being naughty and fool on you again. It will be soon, don't worry.

July.. Time to Prune Hydrangea

Pruning has to be done for the health of Hydrangea BEFORE August. Why August? This is because by that time, Hydrangea already produce flower buds on stems around August, September or October for the following year's blooms. If those stems are removed (pruned) in this period,the bloom buds will be removed, which will result in fewer blooms the coming year. Which means, June and July is the best time for pruning.

Note that pruning is not the same thing as removing the dead blooms. Pruning is somehow cut off the existing blooms which can be a painful experience. How would anyone wish to trim off the attractive blooms which is in blossom condition?

I myself reluctant to be pruned. I want to stay in this sweet condition. Looking at my own blossom blooms. Yet, I see my gardener (God) standing beside me. I guess He is heartache to cut down these beautiful blooms as well. But, He MUST do so. He has to trim off the old blooms so that the bloom buds that covered underneath will grow in coming year.

God took a big gardening scissors and cutting off my old blooms.

I was crying and begging :"Please Papa, please don't cut it off. It means alot to me. It gives me good memories. Why can't I keep these old blooms?"

He just kept quiet and continue with His work. After that, He standing there starring at me, He gasped. I guess my condition must be terrible. I sob, I turned away and refused to see Him. I felt shameful with my current ugly look especially when people walk passing me.

Slowly, He squated down, patting on my head and said:" My girl, my forever beautiful Hydrangea. Don't be sad. These blooms are pretty but not healthy anymore. I felt pain to cut it off too but I must do what is best for You. This is exactly the correct timing to prune. Then, I shall see your blossom blooms soon. If I don't do this now, you might end up having nothing in the coming year. Be patient, my girl."

I bursted into tears once again. Hugging my Heavenly Daddy even harder. I didn't say anything anymore, so is He. He hugged me tight. At that moment, I realised. I can be ugly Hydrangea, I can be living without any blooms. But surely I can't live without my great gardener, Heavenly Father, My Almight God.

My Healing Testimonial

This is my testimonial on how God healed me from a cut in my throat. It was on Thursday night that I being cut by a sharp prawn’s tail in my inner throat. . I felt a sudden pain in my throat which is hardly to be described.

I struggled with the pain for more than 24 hours. I was frustrated and thinking perhaps this time, I really need to consult a doctor else I might get infection from the cut.

On Friday night, I couldn't stand the pain anymore. As I sat down and prayed, I ask God for healing. To be honest, I was praying in doubt. I was kinda persuading God to heal me as I laid hand on my neck and said, "ok Lord Jesus, could you please heal me? How about when I remove my hand from my neck and the pain suddenly gone? Let's count 1.. 2.. 3.. ok?"

So silently, I counted 1.. 2.. 3.. in my heart. Then follow by a longer silent. I took a try to swallow my saliva and... ouch....the pain is still there.

I was bit down and disappointed. I thought God always heal? Then how come the miracle didn’t happen? So I sat there quietly, trying to listen to God’s voice. I heard, patient, patient. Suddenly I realize that I shall not question God’s ability. He can always heal but in His timing, not mine. So once again, I surrender myself and apologize for my rudeness. I prayed that God will uphold me and heal me in the way He wants it to be. I prayed that He will restore me while sleep.

The next morning, I woke at 5:30am for my morning prayer. As I gave thanks to my heavenly Father for a new day, I suddenly realize the pain was gone. Not even I can feel a mild discomfort in my throat.

The pain in TOTALLY GONE !

My mind was a little bit blank at that moment as I had never ever experienced such a healing from God’s. I was astonished. I was overjoyed. The joy is indescribable.
Spectacular!
Some people might laugh at me right now as you might think this is such a small matter. To me, it is a miracle that proves God is real. We always thought that miracle means something great, huge and only happen during very serious or dangerous situation. This is a wrong concept. The miracle of God’s power is happening everyday, everywhere. It can be on you and me as long as we have faith in Him.

Sometime, the insignificant things happened around us may not seem great yet it is a plan from God. If we are more focus in Him and seeks Him always, we will realize that God is trying to brighten our days with all these tiny yet wonderful blessing. For sure, this glory belongs to Him alone.

My prayer of thanks:

Father in heaven, I am really thankful for such a great experience from you. As I walk on my journey, I see You there right beside me. You hold my hand and lead me all along the way. Sometime, it might be difficult for me to understand Your plan, then I slumber, I doubt and walk away from you. Yet, You never let me go. Thank you for your healing as this is a nutrient for my spiritual life to continue grows and blossom.
Amen.

Conversation Between My Internal Organs

Did you ever hear your internal organs talking to each other? Well, if you don't, let’s listen to what I hear inside my body.

One day, after my 3 days fasting, while I was asleep, my internal organs started to argue.

Intestine: phew~~this few days i really has alot of free time, only need to digest some liquid. No solid food at all.

Liver: Yeah.. less toxic for me too.

Heart & Lungs: Argg.... this is unfair. How come we still have to work 24 hours non-stop? How come intestine can have a 3 easy going days?

Lungs: Can I request Ariel to stop breathing for 3 days so that I could take a long holiday as well?

Intestine: Hey, not just me. Stomach does less work too.

Stomach: Argg…who say I’m having easy time? In fact, I’m struggling. It was really a tough period for me as without food, the acidic gastric juice is hurting my inner stomach wall. I was working even harder to monitor the juice secretion.

Heart: That shows you don’t have self control. Perhaps I should take a holiday and stop beating for 3 days as well. If our master do not agree with this, then I want to resign!

Lungs: Yeah.. Resign.. Resign….

Suddenly, the Holy Spirit voiced out.

Holy Spirit: You all foolish organs. Shut up and repent. What do you think you are if without your master body. God created all of you to be part of this body and to serve your master. How dare you make such a foolish requirement? Now, I shall punish you for your imprudent act.

At this time, all the organs trembled in fear and start to beg for forgiveness.

Holy Spirit: Remember, I spare your life is because this body still needs your function as long as this body is on earth. One day, when Jesus is back, god will grant your master a whole new body and all of you are nothing at all. But if you are still not satisfy at this moment, the Almighty God can set you off anytime right now and restore this body with new organs. So you better work hard!

After that, everyone is in silent. My body suddenly felt exhausted and I was gasping for breathe. My heart was pounding incredibly fast.

Brain: Hey, what’s wrong?

Lungs: 1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2….I must work hard else I’ll be set off. So I must breathe harder to get more oxygen for gas transfer. 1,2,1,2,1,2,1,2……

Heart: Ya ya.. so am I. I must work harder. Pumping blood in my highest speed.

Brain: Oh no!! You are going to make this body collapse!.. HELP~~~!!!!!

*p.s: If you feel "sweating" to read this article. I understand. As I also feel "sweating" that how could I come out with such an article. hahaha... crazy liao....

大头的我..

我的头很大。。很多人这么说，我也这么认为。。

大学４年，是我在电单车上飞驰最多的时期。朋友常常因为我穿不下他们带给我的头盔而笑得前俯后仰。

不然，就是喜欢捉弄我 ＂大头，大头，下雨不愁＂

当然，另一个原因是我很善忘。 所以，又变成了人们口中的大头虾。有时在想，我的头那么大，是不是应该可以积存更多的记忆呢？那，为什么我却善忘？

唯一的解释是，这个记忆仓太大了，要找回一些纪录，并不容易。跑来跑去，是很累的，可怜我的脑细胞， 要比别人发出更强烈的电波，才能到达我大脑面积宽阔的的每一个角落。

你也觉得它们很可怜，对不对？ 所以呢，如果我又忘记了一些事，请别怪我， 而是要体谅我的脑细胞哦。。

虽然，妈妈常说，大头的人是很有福气的。可是我找偏任何书，并没有任何科学证明可以支持这个说法。

有时会想，上帝啊。。您是不是在创造我的时候，毫不吝啬的下手太重了，把我的头塞得太满了？

无论是什么原因，我还是很庆幸，还是要感谢上帝。因为，要找一个象我这样，头大得那么可爱又漂亮的， 谈何容易。。。

（我可以看见你们正在点头）谢啦。。。哈哈

Coffee, Tea or God ? ?

Coffee, a widely-consumed stimulant beverage that many people could not live without. I’d seen people who cannot start their day without coffee. They feel down, reckless until they finally take a sip of this strong aroma, powerful drink. For some people, the urge of drinking coffee is so strong that without coffee, they can’t concentrate or focus at all. Can I consider this as “addicted” to coffee?

Tea, that I meant here is not the beverage itself but is about the “Yum Cha” culture in Malaysia. “Yum Cha” means drinking tea or should be interpreted as drinking tea during supper time has become a trendy culture in the society. I still remember when I first stepped into University and telling my friends that I’d never “Yum Cha” during my high school period, they laughed at me. Soon, I’m some sort addicted to such a culture too. Try to make it every night without failed. Luckily, it did not last long.

I won’t describe any further about coffee or tea as they are not my main concern here. What I wish to say is about my God and Jesus Christ, above all the addiction stated above. Some people can spend hours to brew a cup of nice coffee yet no time to pray. Some people can steal a few hours every night to go “Yum Cha” yet no time to spend just 15 or 30 min to chat with God. Some people tells me that they love God, but when their obsession on coffee start to haunt them, all that is in their mind is “coffee~~ coffee~~I need coffee”.

Well, don’t get me wrong. I don’t mean that drinking coffee or go to “Yum Cha” is wrong. I just mean that sometime this habit may distract our focus on God if the habit has became much more important than seeking God. Coffee and tea here are just an example. The distraction could be in other form such as music, movie, drama, games, sports, clubbing etc. Of course we can enjoy all these as it is part of God’s creation too but with terms and conditions which is God First.

I wish one day, I could be addicted. I want to be “Jesus Addict”. Perhaps I’m already is as I know I could not live without Jesus. And I would wake up every morning yelling

“Jesus~~Jesus~~ I need Jesus”. It is He alone that can give me strength, courage and above all, Life.

He is my shelter, my shield, my portion, my deliverer, my strong tower, my very present help in time of need.

*p.s: Lastly, if you ask me coffee, tea or God ? No doubt, 101% answer is GOD.

Because I don’t drink coffee or tea as I only drink Milo. phew~~luckily.. :p

My Journey

*p.s : Please click on the image in order to read the message...

唱 k 咯~~!

今天，差点失声了。。和侄女去唱k 。两个人，唱了两个半小时，我觉得很累，这小妞却还嚷着不够过瘾。真被她打败。

无论如何, 第一次在怡保唱 k， 当然要拍照留念喔。

一，二，三。。。 =.=

试了几次，我那可爱的侄女，应该是还沉醉在音乐中，眼睛总是睁不开。没办法咯。。

My Workplace

Many people always concern about where am I working as my company does not have a branch office in Ipoh.

So now, let me show you my work station, where I spend most of my time except when I'm attending case or meeting surgeon.

Though it is not a perfect work place but I still appreciate it alot. And sometime I guess, I should be selected as best employee as I'm so hardworking until most of the time, I sleep beside my workplace (my bed is right opposite the table). Haha~~!

My pH Dropped, Due to Transplanting

It was a bad weather, sometime raining heavily, sometime was too warm.
Perhaps during such a difficult time, it is really not suitable to transplant me - Hydrangea.
Last night, it rained heavily. I was swaying in the rain. Even though tonne of rain water flowing into me, I am still dehydrated.

God's heart must be pain to see me in such condition, but He insisted to transplant me. As He knew what is best for me. I need a new environment and a new pot. He dug me out from the old soggy soil. I am so stubborn sometime that I refused to be moved. I want to stay in my comfort area because I worry too much. What if the new pot not suitable for me? What if I cannot adapt to the new environment? What if when I being transplant, my pH dropped and I turned to blue.

When I insisted to stay on the ground, I became so strengthless. Then my tears keep flowing. Suddenly, I look up and I see God's face. He stand there silently under the rain. I see tears flowing down His cheeks too. He kept telling me it is all right when He started to dig up as much rootball as possible. It was a difficult task in such a weather. But He didn't gave up on me. Then I realized, it would be easier if I clinged on His hand to allow Him to carry me out from the soggy soil instead I slumber around and let Him to do all the rest.

When I was finally out from the old soil.. My pH dropped tremendously and I turned blue~~ ( refers to previous post to know why pH is important to Hydrangea). God held me tight in His arm and rush to the new pot and let me settle down. I waited silently. Then I was too tired and fell asleep but He remains there to comfort and heal me. He checking my pH from time to time to make sure when the sun rises again in the morning, I'll be in the pink of health.

Thanks God, I woke up fresh and shine today. I might not be in perfect pH of 6.2 yet but I can see He still stand beside me holding me. Using His huge body to cover me to avoid the strong sunlight then He says to me, "My dear, bare in mind that I will only give You the best, hold on and You will see the glory soon".

A Break Through In Life

Hours ago, I'd been waiting, counting down the time to write this testimony. I just can't believe it that I really did it. Fasting for 3 days equivalent to 72 hours without solid food, but only plain water, 2 cups of milo, a cup of orange juice and a cup of soya bean each day. (I can hear some ppl saying I'm crazy now). Haha.


Well, what I want to emphasize here is not how wonderful that I made this. I'm not fasting for keeping fit nor for a proof that I got self control. But I fast for seeking God. I am very sure that I will not make this through if it is without God's protection, guidance and blessing.


As a girl who always suffer from gastric pain, I always convince myself (consciously or unconsciously) that I cannot fast. I don't have the faith at all. But this time, God really touched my heart in order to make this decision. Within this 3 days, I don't suffer from gastric pain, I still look energetic and fresh, I still work as usual, I still go to gym and work out for 1.5 hours.


Perhaps I still haven't got the answer that I'm looking for during this fast and pray period. But I know this is a break through for me as I'd come closer and closer to my Abba Father. And through Him alone that this can be done. Thank you my Lord for this blessing. All this glory belongs to You and You alone.


Hallelujah!

Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past Things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes All of my plans
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a pleasing sacrify

Lord I offer You my life

A Mate from God

We know that it is the Lord's will for people to have mate if they desire one. In the beginning when God created Adam, God Himself made this statement.

Genesis 2:18 – It is not good for man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.

The Lord wants to bring a mate to those who will ask Him and have the patience to wait for His choice. There are some single people who are constantly looking for a mate and they are miserable because God has not sent them one yet. They have prayed and prayed yet they still have no mate.

Some start pondering and settle for Satan’s provision instead of asking God for the patience to wait for the one whom He would send. If they would look to Jesus & seek to please him, rather than being concerned about a mate, soon they will find the right one crossing their path.

Looking for a man or woman to just keep them from being lonely or just to fill their needs should not be the only reason for desiring a mate. It is important to be concerned about what kind of husband/wife they would be for a mate even before the relationship starts. They should ask Lord to fill them with His Love and Peace.

It might take some time before we really meet the correct mate as God may use our “singleness” to mold us into a better person before directing us to our other half. First the Lord would begin to use us to bless others; then we will find we are content in Him. Eventually, in God’s plan and timing, He will bless us with a wonderful mate so that both lives can be a witness for him. We should never enter into marriage or perhaps I should say enter into a relationship without much prayer.

If we allow the emotional & soulish realm to dominate our lives we become more susceptible to the enemy leading us astray through someone. So many have failed the Lord because they choose a man/woman over the Lord.
1. Solomon’s heathen wife led him into idolatry.
2. Samson lost his eyes because of a woman.
3. David committed murder and adultery because of passion for Bathsheba.

The true definition of love is “God is Love”. If God is not in a relationship, it is not true love. What the world calls love is really lust since it is built on what the other person does for me instead of what I can do for him/her. If the other person fails to keep up his end of the bargain, a divorce occurs because the offended mate is no longer pleased. This is the attitude of the world’s love.

God’s love is loves without receiving back (though this seems difficult to understand; in fact it is tough as we are just human)
God’s love if forgiving and patient.
God’s love is gentle and kind.
God’s love waits.
God’s love sacrifices.

Man’s emotions are not a reliable gauge upon which to establish a relationship. It is important to seek for character than emotion. Emotion fluctuate; character doesn’t. Emotion are in the soulish realm and unless the carnal mind has been renew, Satan can give us emotions or feeling of loves for someone of his choosing. “Falling” in love is Satan’s way. A Christian should not blindly “fall” into a trap. Love is bigger than simply falling for someone.

Certainly God gives us a wonderful emotional feeling for the one we are to marry. However, this “feeling” without God’s direction can be disastrous as Satan can tamper with our emotions and feelings too. Therefore, relationship or marriage should be based on a decision directed by the Holy Spirit.

Above all, thank God and seek God.

My 1st Instrument Wrapping

I always feel the CSSD staff in the operation theatre does incredible job. They need to manage alot of instrument, from washing, drying, cleaning to wrapping with correct way, arranging different set of instrument for different type of surgery.

Finally, they give me a chance to learn from them on how to wrap the instrument set. So excited to share it out. Here it is, the very 1st instrument set that i wrapped by myself. It is 2 layer. Now, it is ready to push into autoclave machine to sterile it.

Thank God, I'm in pH 6.2

Some people might be wondering, what does Ariel means by "I'm in pH 6.2" ? does she turned acidic?

Now, let me tell you the fascinating facts about Me as Hydrangea.
Hydrangeas are fascinating in that, unlike most other plants, the color of Hydrangea can change dramatically. The color can be changed by controlling the pH of the soil. Hydrangea can appear to be blue to pink or even purple.

It is much easier to change a hydrangea from pink to blue than it is from blue to pink. Changing a hydrangea from pink to blue entails adding aluminum to the soil. Changing from blue to pink means subtracting aluminum from the soil or taking it out of reach of the hydrangea. pH 6.2 is perfect for Hydrangea to keep it pinkish color. If the pH drop until 5.2-5.5, it will become blue in color.

Therefore, when I say I'm in pH 6.2 means I'm in the pink of health, not in "blue~~" mood. Good thing right? haha...

Well, wondering am I confusing anybody? What is hydrangea to do with me? Actually, Hydrangea is the nick of mine which i use since the very first day learn to online. So Hydrangea means me. I choose this nick is because I'm amazed with hydrangea's wonderful nature and character.

Conclusion, I am in pH 6.2 and I'm sure God will be my perfect gardener who will always maintain my pH so that I'll be happy and healthy and pinky always.

Thanks my heavenly Papa, muacks!

我坚信...

心，是一个容器，不停的累积，所有的点滴。。

但，如果有一天，当思念满溢，沾透天与地。。

我，还是否依然，耐心等待着，顺服的聆听。。

风，为我吹起了，满地的落叶，也编编起舞。。

雨，悄悄的落了，载我的祝福，撒在你身边。。

天，渐渐的黑了，我闭上双眼，在内心摸索。。

主，我听见你了，不需要言语，只需坚信着。。

Meaningful lyric to share

你身上专属的陌生味道 是我确认你存在的目标
不用来回张望了直到 今世我们相隔在一个街角
这么久了，还是可以看到 感觉得到你对我的重要
不会被天黑天亮打扰 你每一次的温柔我都想炫耀

我们绕了这么一圈才遇到，我比谁都更明白你的重要
这么久了我就决定了，决定了你的手我握了不会放掉
我们绕了这么一圈才遇到，我答应自己不再庸人自扰
因为我要的我自己知道，只要你的肩膀依然让我靠

好累哦~~

繁忙的一周， 有点精疲力尽。。

怎么睡，还是觉得不足够。。

还好，朋友的支持与鼓励，窝心极了。。

来临的一周， 又将是繁忙的。。

大家为我加油吧。。

我可以挨过的。。。

My Almighty God

Have you ever feel the anointing from God? Have you ever felt the presence of God so strongly that your heart was so touched until your tears keep rolling nonstop and uncontrollable?

This is not the 1st time I feel this, but it is always a wonderful moment every time I experience this.

Just attended a healing session organized by “The Fountain of Joy”. Indeed, a wonderful night. A night where I see the almight work of God. 1st time in my life, I see gold dust appear on my hand. Even though I’d been hearing about the anointing of God by gold dust blessing, in fact, I saw it before on other brother’s and sister’s hands, I had never see it on my own hand before. Though this time, it is not much. It is still a wonderful moment to me.

When pastor made the altar call, I was so willingly to walk to the front, eagerly waiting for the prayer. Yet, deep in my heart, I had fear. This is not right, because in God there is no fear. Then why did this feeling was so strong in me? I start to doubt whether I should be prayed for?

I kept stepped back when I saw rolls of bro n sis fell in front of me due to the great power anointed by God. But at last, I still made up my mind to come to God.

Then, I fell. Feeling weird as I thought I fell was because being dragged down by the people beside me. So I talked to God in my heart “Lord, I am still conscious, perhaps just a mistake so I wanna get up.”

So I tried to get up. To my surprised, I was strengthless. There was no way I can wake up. My shoulder, my chest and my hands kept trembling. Great tremble indeed. Then I came to realization, God was healing me. Holy Spirit was trying to cast out the evil spirit that was not supposed to be inside me. It was this evil spirit that gave me the feeling of fear so that I would not go to God.

I had a great sleep yesterday night. In fact, I smile to my sleep. The feeling is wonderful or I should say no word can describe it.

All I can say is, my God is Almight.